It's a good day for wishes. This past week at work (generally I work from Sunday-Wednesday, so this really is the end of my work week), I have been meditating on my intentions for the year. I know the word of the year, I know my goals.

I had a couple massages this week where I did chakra work and in meditating on the third chakra (my favorite) with both clients, I thought specifically about my will and what I was putting out to the universe this year.

This is who I am, this is who I am becoming, make way, make way. It is all things honoring my true nature, being my authentic self, and feeding my hunger.

I wish to feed the hunger of my body and run daily. In all truth, it is nothing to do with health or weight loss, it is the answer to the cries of my soccer/dance/basketball legs, the arms that wish to pump, the sweat that is waiting to be set free.

I have long and short term goals for this. In the long term, in early 2012, my bff and I will run a half-marathon at Disney. This is basis for my short term goals. To encourage my ADHD-wandering self to stay put, I've subscribed to a running magazine so I have monthly reminders of what I'm doing. I have been wanting to be a runner for years, so much so that my CCSF laughed when I told her my resolution for the year was to run, and asked if that wasn't my goal for 2010 as well. It was, and I had gotten to the point, in my sporadic training to get to two minute intervals. While it is better than what I could do in 2009, I will get way beyond that in 2011. Running is what I do. My first short term goal is to run a solid mile by the end of February. I'm on it!

I wish to feed the hunger of my psyche and develop an independent massage practice. No more commissions, no more micromanagement, no more restrictions on product usage. My own marketing without corporation interpretation, my clients, my 100%-not-at-all-shared prices. This is currently in a messy state of scattered pieces. There are lots of things in my head that need to be sorted out and written down - some bits need to go on the yet-to-exist massage blog, some bits need to be written down to be believed, some bits need to be planned out a little better. There are some mysteries I've not been able to research yet.

At the moment, I think I may have figured out a potential mentor so I need to suck it up, reach out and see if I can have said chosen mentor. The best news is that I've figured out the type of person I want to learn from so if this one refuses me, I know what I am looking for!

It's the biggest and scariest thing, but it's also exactly what I need to be doing with my life. I exist to heal and to teach and I am doing neither in my current job. It is also the path to the level of financial freedom that I need for the life I intend to live (my ultimate goal is to never worry about money again. At least from the perspective of never having enough of it to pay the bills.).

Actually, I have been thinking so much about the first two, that this last one is just popping up very quietly -

I wish to feed the hunger of my spirit, to have a strong connection to the feminine divine. This will require meditation and ritual to figure out. Now that it is here though, I'll figure out a plan.